Monday, January 20, 2014

The next 40

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Exciting news on my front. I've finally hit -40lbs. The last 10 have been harder to lose than I thought and I feel like I was on this annoying cycle of losing/gaining/not getting anywhere. It. Is. So. Frustrating.

So what am I going to do?

Start counting calories: This pains me beyond belief, but it's something I need to do. I can be really stubborn and this is one thing I've been stubborn about. So, starting tomorrow, just as I track everything I burn, I'm going to be tracking everything I consume. It makes perfect sense and really is the only proven way to lose weight. You have to be a caloric deficit to lose weight. Plain and simple. Boom. Science.        

I'll start using MyFitnessPal and track from there.

More running and more weights: Should I run a half marathon? Should I deadlift 150 lbs? I don't know. Why not? I know that I am interested in testing myself physically. I've never felt so strong and powerful when it comes to my body. That's crazy to me! I've always done sports, but never 100% enjoyed them. I just enjoyed the people. I love that I've gotten to a point where my exercise/fitness are a personal thing.

On the running side, I've found myself pushing myself on my runs. Oh, I'm out for a 30 minutes run? Why not make it 40 minutes and then 40 minutes turns into 50 minutes. After that, I start thinking about how 60 minutes would feel and I kick up the speed. And so it goes. 

I also know I need weightlifting in my life to hit my goals.  I don't want to just be thin, I want to be really fit. I want to have lots of energy and feel like I can do anything. I want to be able to do a pullup and more than 10 real pushups. Weightlifting (even just bodyweight) will get me there. I'm going to start keeping a fitness journal and tracking the weights/reps so that I can see my progress.

Meditation / stress free: My sister and I have been talking about quiet time a lot. As humans, we need time carved out to let us think and breathe. I've gotten into the idea of 10 minute meditation. This is just me time. I light a candle, and breathe. I try not to think about anything even though I can feel my mind zooming at 100 miles an hour. My mind is racing, racing, racing as I think about work, my friends/family and projects I want to do. So I've promised myself 10 minutes a day to just breathe and find silence. I think this is just as important as getting enough sleep, eating mindfully and getting in my weekly 5.

Have more (but not self-destructive) fun: I need to stop equating "fun" and "letting lose" with eating things that don't go with my lifestyle. Sure every now and again, I can eat things that aren't paleo or 100% healthy, but that needs to stop being a thing I think of as pleasure. It just needs to be a thing that happens and has less emotion attached to it. I'm learning, but still have a ways to go. So the idea here is really finding balance and being in check with my emotions when I'm doing things. 
So there we have it. Let's tackle the next 40! 

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Chhhaaaannggesss (and surviving them)

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I'll one hundred percent admit that the first thing I stop paying attention to when I'm stressed or overwhelmed is my health. It's dumb, but it happens. Something comes up and I don't have time to eat the right foods or can't get to my gym classes, everything falls apart. 3 weeks after my dark spiral, I'll usually look up and try to assess the damage and feel the deep regret that I'm back at square one. Or at least, that's what used to happen.

I'm not that way any more. In fact, I think my health and fitness goals are the things that ground me when I'm having a hard time or faced with a big change. Because my fitness journey is a commitment to myself, it is the one thing in my life that is constant. No excuses, just lots of dedication and work.

Next week, I'll start a new job at work. I'm changing offices, routine and lots of things that have contributed to the infrastructure of my success. I have been really freaked out about the change to my routine. Right now, my workout schedule looks like this:

  • Monday: crossfit
  • Tuesday: kickboxing or cardio sculpt
  • Wednesday: crossfit
  • Thursday: off day
  • Friday: weights/crossfitty things/ self workout
  • Saturday/Sunday: 3-4 mile run on one day 
The problem is that my new office doesn't have crossfit. It's sad to think about, but not the end of the world. Because I don't see fitness roadblocks anymore, I figure out solutions. I've been looking at my new locations workout options. The past 6 months of doing crossfit have changed my life and I'm so glad I've had that opportunity. Going into this new role, I'll have the first few weeks where I'll need to do more of my workout at home or at the end of the day while I adjust to the new schedule. That's ok and I'm going to figure it all out. This is what I've been thinking:  
  • Monday: body pump
  • Tuesday: spin 
  • Wednesday: November project or body pump 
  • Thursday: cardio barre 
  • Friday: off day
  • Saturday/Sunday: 3-4 mile run on one day 
The main thing I've taken away from this transition is the fact that I'm planning ahead. I've never planned before for something like this. Usually change happens and I go back to my self-destructive ways. My fitness goals are so important to me that I don't think I could even go back. I'm stronger, leaner, and more mentally prepared than I've ever been. This is so exciting. I'm also super pumped for this change in my life, and instead of being a roadblock - it's going to push me forward. 
Halfway to my goal! Feeling awesome and ready for 2014.