So what am I going to do?
Start counting calories: This pains me beyond belief, but it's something I need to do. I can be really stubborn and this is one thing I've been stubborn about. So, starting tomorrow, just as I track everything I burn, I'm going to be tracking everything I consume. It makes perfect sense and really is the only proven way to lose weight. You have to be a caloric deficit to lose weight. Plain and simple. Boom. Science.
I'll start using MyFitnessPal and track from there.
More running and more weights: Should I run a half marathon? Should I deadlift 150 lbs? I don't know. Why not? I know that I am interested in testing myself physically. I've never felt so strong and powerful when it comes to my body. That's crazy to me! I've always done sports, but never 100% enjoyed them. I just enjoyed the people. I love that I've gotten to a point where my exercise/fitness are a personal thing.
On the running side, I've found myself pushing myself on my runs. Oh, I'm out for a 30 minutes run? Why not make it 40 minutes and then 40 minutes turns into 50 minutes. After that, I start thinking about how 60 minutes would feel and I kick up the speed. And so it goes.
I also know I need weightlifting in my life to hit my goals. I don't want to just be thin, I want to be really fit. I want to have lots of energy and feel like I can do anything. I want to be able to do a pullup and more than 10 real pushups. Weightlifting (even just bodyweight) will get me there. I'm going to start keeping a fitness journal and tracking the weights/reps so that I can see my progress.
Meditation / stress free: My sister and I have been talking about quiet time a lot. As humans, we need time carved out to let us think and breathe. I've gotten into the idea of 10 minute meditation. This is just me time. I light a candle, and breathe. I try not to think about anything even though I can feel my mind zooming at 100 miles an hour. My mind is racing, racing, racing as I think about work, my friends/family and projects I want to do. So I've promised myself 10 minutes a day to just breathe and find silence. I think this is just as important as getting enough sleep, eating mindfully and getting in my weekly 5.
Have more (but not self-destructive) fun: I need to stop equating "fun" and "letting lose" with eating things that don't go with my lifestyle. Sure every now and again, I can eat things that aren't paleo or 100% healthy, but that needs to stop being a thing I think of as pleasure. It just needs to be a thing that happens and has less emotion attached to it. I'm learning, but still have a ways to go. So the idea here is really finding balance and being in check with my emotions when I'm doing things.
So there we have it. Let's tackle the next 40!