This is also an important milestone because I've been here before. Oh yes, I know these numbers on the scale, but I've never really been able to get past them. Call it a mental block or just a place where I get to because it is a place I arrive pulling only the levers I'm willing to pull. The next 40 is scary unknown territory. It is going to test me more emotionally than physically. And that my friends means it is going to be a lot harder.
So what am I going to do?
Start counting caloriesThis pains me beyond belief, but it's something I need to do. I cringe when I even think about it. It feels so rigid, horrible, and everything I don't want to do. I feel upset about it even just writing it out. I can be really stubborn and this is one thing I'm stubborn about. But being stubborn about something that is important to my goals is not okay. So, starting tomorrow, just as I track everything I burn, I'm going to be tracking everything I consume.
It makes perfect sense and really is the only proven way to lose weight. As long as your body is properly functioning, you have to be a caloric deficit to lose weight. Plain and simple. Boom. Science. I'll start using MyFitnessPal and track from there.
More running and more weightsShould I run a half marathon? Should I deadlift 150 lbs? I don't know. Why not? I know that I am interested in testing myself physically. I've never felt so strong and powerful when it comes to my body. That's crazy to me! I've always done sports, but never 100% enjoyed them. I just enjoyed the people. I love that I've gotten to a point where my exercise/fitness is a personal thing.
On the running side, I've been pushing myself. Oh, I'm out for a 30 minutes run? Why not make it 40 minutes and then 40 minutes turns into 50 minutes. After that, I start thinking about how 60 minutes would feel and I kick up the speed. And so it goes. Oddly enough, it's been fun. Sunday and I enjoy it so we will keep doing it.
I also know I need weightlifting in my life to hit my goals. I don't want to just be thin, I want to be really fit. I want to have lots of energy and feel like I can do anything. I want to be able to do a pullup and more than 10 real pushups. Weightlifting (even just bodyweight) will get me there. I'm going to start keeping a fitness journal and tracking the weights/reps so that I can see my progress.
Meditation / stress freeMy sister and I have been talking a lot about quiet time. As humans, we need time carved out to let us think and breathe. I've gotten into the idea of 10 minute meditation. This is just me time. I light a candle and breathe. I try not to think about anything even though I can feel my mind zooming at 100 miles an hour. My mind is racing, racing, racing as I think about work, my friends/family and projects I want to do. To help with that, I've promised myself 10 minutes a day to just breathe and find silence. I think this is just as important as getting enough sleep, eating mindfully and getting in my weekly 5.
Have more (but not self-destructive) funI need to stop equating "fun" and "letting lose" with eating things that don't go with my lifestyle. Sure every now and again, I can eat things that aren't paleo or 100% healthy, but that needs to stop being a thing I think of as pleasure. It just needs to be a thing that happens and has to have less emotion attached to it. I'm learning, but still have a ways to go.
The idea with this goal is really finding balance and being in check with my emotions when I'm doing things. This is my life and I need to make sure I have enough space to achieve my goals and have an awesome time as a 20-something in San Francisco. I have awesome friends and great adventures in store this year, but I need to balance everything. So yes to more fun in 2014, but also most definitely yes to achieving my goals.
So there we have it. Let's tackle the next 40! I'm off for a 4-5 mile run to get started.
|January 2014 vs. September 2013|